A Friday, December 31, 2004
the last day of 2004 is finally here. wells.. actually not finally lah.. i mean, this year seemed to pass realli realli fast. faster than 2003, or so i tink.. wadever. cant sae that this is a totally fantastic year, but its not bad either lah.. of course i met new pple this year, got to know more about them, became great friends, hor my darhlings? haha. still, at the same time, pple left my life, i left pples' lives, hopefully not permanently.
i found out wat are the consequences of slacking this year. an average B3/4 for the various papers. hohoho. thank god thank teachers thank everybody that i got into combi 1 for sec 3. wad was i tinking of? slacking so badly before the streaming exams. wells.. i guess, maybe i will not slack animore next year. i sae MAYBE onli. but the temptation to slack is too big. BLAH.
my class this year was great. wells. quiet we are, but we showed that we are not nerds. not being hao lian here ok, but we din onli show academic results right? we won best painting for the racial harmony dae tile painting. we did the best for the sec 2 NAPFA oso right? ha we not nerds lah. ok. sum of us are. or should i sae THEM? haha. tee hee. dont mind me.
for volleyball i got no comments. onli 1 thing to sae. i finally managed to serve nicely, abeit not being consistant.
arh im being so long winded telling everybody stories about my year. should i make new year resolutions? i heard frm sum 1 that resolutions are so cliched. fine. so here are my new year wishes. WISHES. not resolutions.
1) pls let me grow just a lil taller. juz a little more. sae.. 4 cm? juz let me hit 1.7m pretty please?
2) yes. a new handphone. i promise i wont lose it ever again.
3) a new handphone contract. FREE INCOMING CALLS. i NEED it badly.
4)no more traumatic haircuts. i sae please to my hair dressers. PLEASE.
5) vb skills to improve. come on im being practical. which player doesnt want that?
6) that i be happy. which means all that i want happen will happen. cos currently i cannot think of anything more that i want to i muz be more general, abeit more greedy. but wadever la. so hopefully next year i will be happy. yay.
i dont know wad im doing now bombarding you with my 2 cents worth of dunno wad. but aniwae, this is the last post of the year so i gotta tok all my 2 cts worth for all i care cos 2004 will never come back right? haix. goodbye 2004. hello 2005. hope that 2005 will not be a heart break. WAD AM I SAYING?? i dunno. blah.
love just ain't enough. 9:23 PM
A Wednesday, December 29, 2004
have you seen girls play soccer?
its a horrible sight.
HORRIBLE.
trust me.
I SAY TRUST ME!
everybody juz chase after the ball and screams.
omg.
love just ain't enough. 10:47 PM
A Monday, December 27, 2004
how time flies.. 2 months gone in e blink of the eye. skool gonna restart again. shucks. currently my bowl of green bean soup is boiling in the kitchen. perhaps it will be ready in half an hour? green beans take a freakingly long time to get cooked. sigh.
i totally love serving volleyball. very shuang. haha.
juz the other dae on christmas eve, i was at Ngee Ann city. sumbody scared the wits out of me and i went hysterical. practically mad. i ran out of the takashimaya departmental store, knocking down almost all the displays on my way. haiz. in my desperate attemption to get out of the shopping mall, i actually tried the emergency exit. and i set the fire alarm off. omg. i was strangely calm though. the whole world was like staring at me. -_-. i went to apologise to the security guard. the wierd but kind security guard actually smiled and said it was ok. den wish me "merry christmas" summore. heng arh. and to the idiot who scared me, i say to you. WELL DONE man.
this whole week is filled with volleyball. trainings on mondae, wednesdae and thursdae. tuesdae go play volleyball with the primary skool students at nan hua pri. you noe, muz bridge good contact with dem, so that they will cum to fmss when the are of secondary skool age. den they can play for fairfield. so "jian zhao" right? we are not the onli one whos doing that ok. heck. im afraid that the primary skool kiddies play better than me. maybe i should juz go dere and play catching with dem.
this message is to nilawan cheng. its a threat. a WARNING. you better keep your promise and go out with me on thursdae. you BETTER.
green bean soup still not ready yet, but i gtg. so ciao!
love just ain't enough. 10:24 PM
A Friday, December 24, 2004
okies im here to update and tell everybody about the chalet. for those who din go la. or din stay for the night.
erms.. about 15 pple turn up for the chalet. or izzit 20? i dunno.. sum where around dere i suppose.
of course we had barbecue. had food.sum of dem went roller blading.
lets describe the chalet.
the main part of it with the beds, is actually a small square room. measuring 4m by 4m. approx.
den got 2 beds. and 2 mattresses. and a fridge. and a tv. jeremy brought his X box to plug to the tv. the x box is bloody heavy.
those who stayed behind are: jane(me), xinyi, evan see, jeremy, stanley and benjamin. not many.
the boys played X MEN on the X box till 4 plus a.m. at 1, evan see asks me to go beach with her. so we went.-_-". when we were away, sum of evan's frens who was oso staying at the chalet, turn up at our door. they are MGS girls. den one of dem ask jeremy, who opened the door, if he could rate her hotness in 10 seconds. jeremy close the door in her face. -_-. evan's guy friend frm st patrick's visited her frm home at 3 in the morning. den they go beach together. haha. everyone slept at around 5. the 3 girls shared the 2 beds. stanley slept on 1 mattress. jeremy and benjamin share the other. jeremy had to curl up to sleep. evan said he look like a NAKED LAMB. -_-""""" OMG. benjamin said jeremy was sleeping in a foetal position, waiting to be born. -_-"
checked out at 1030 the next dae. jeremy had to stuff the whole x box in his bag. i tink the bag weighed like at least 20 kg. -_-. lots of evan see's stuff is with me. pls evan. come collect dem. blah.
love just ain't enough. 10:41 PM
A Monday, December 20, 2004
i REALLY LIKE jia jia liang teh.
i tink i have a FETISH for it.
omg save me.
*screams
love just ain't enough. 9:55 PM
A Saturday, December 18, 2004
hihi. me went to stay at my cousin's hse. din get a chance to blog. bought a few pieces of clothes the last few daes. to replenish my pathetically empty cupboard. bought everything one size bigger, juz in case i grow fatter/taller/bigger/rounder/wadever. i suffer from fast growing syndrome. ok lame. wadever. skools starting in 2 weeks time. i havent slack enough. din do maths problems.m din do holiday homework. ARGH!!! WAD AM I GONNA DO??? ARGGGHH SUM ONE KILL ME!!! ARGH! IM GONNA DIE!! ARGH!!!!!. ok siao. aniwae, class chalet this wed. whos going? tell me. hahas. im boredd. love ya all. byes! muacks! ew. haha.
love just ain't enough. 5:59 PM
A Saturday, December 11, 2004
Today im going do up yet another
self-centered post. Let me first start with
the things that i like!
I shall first start with
my favourite food and drink!
My favourite drink is... tadda!
JIA JIA LIANG TEH!!
Good friends of mine should know that I have a certain
obsession for the herbal drink.
They tink that im crazy. Y would anyone drink that? Hor Nilawan darling?
Aniwae I onli drink the less sugar type, not the junior one shown in the pic.
I couldnt find the less sugar cans pic.
On the other hand, my favourite food is less well-known. It is...*drum roll...
GREEN BEAN SOUP!
Best eaten and cooked with
*sago(aka lizard eggs lookalike)!
no. not that I like the
toilet bowl. But too much of JJ liang the and green beans, means that you need the toilet to poo poo! Yuk!
*note that i used
brown to colour the word "toilet bowl"
currently, im really
obsessed with the following form of clothes.
the
SCHOOL UNIFORM!
the pic is not accurate enough to show the beauty of the uniform. Coz I drew it.
Look like a p 3 pupil drew it. But its not easy to draw using the paint program.
And, needless to say, my favourite sport is:
VOLLEYBALL.
Wad more can I say? Even though I totally
suck at it.
This is the end of jane tan's
totally self-centered post, part 1. we shall end with a
anime picture of professor remus lupin of harry potter 3, whom she tinks is totally
hot. The picture is hot. Not the actor in the movie.
The end!
love just ain't enough. 2:52 PM
A Tuesday, December 07, 2004
i am not gonna frown anymore! anybody who see me frowning, please whack me!!!
love just ain't enough. 3:10 PM
A Monday, December 06, 2004
life's terrible. horrible. no good. very bad. life sucks. theres always this empty feeling lingering in me. i tried so hard to get myself accepted. i learnt to be nice. i learnt to see things from other's perspective. i learnt to be friendly, sociable, or at least more than what i used to be. but am i accepted? i am not sure myself. i have lovely good friends, who i believe are genuinely my very good friends. i like them alot. i hope they feel the same. sheila, and nilawan, i thank you two for being my very good friends. i often feel a very high level of inferiority, i walked around school, never lifting my head to look around. in the past, i could not keep eye contact with whoever im talking to, i am not sure why. but i just cannot keep an eye contact. i guess i just do not want that person to see me, or even feel my existence.but wad i did not think of is that the person who would still be talking to me, would think that i am not interested in what he or she has to say. i used to always frown and look very buay song. in short, i intimidate people. i guess. now i force myself to keep an eye contact with people when i talk to them, always reminding myself that even if i dont look at them, they will still see me. so why not just look at them. i learnt to let go of my frown. i tried to smile. but still, i believe many people out there who do not know me, still judge me by whats superficial. my class, my results, my looks, my cca. not that im even good at those listed.often i look into the mirror, staring at the reflection of myself, wondering why the hell am i standing there, and who is this person, whose body i feel so trapped in. i have troubles in my life, but i never seem to be able to really share them with anybody. i always have this thought that people will not take me seriously, or perhaps, i will be even more down trodden if i shared. i have tried to appear happy, laming and crapping around. sometimes i really am happy. the times i spend with my good friends. i must ask my friends to forgive me. i realised that you people noticed my bouts of mood swings, which is what you people call them. in school i try to appear the happiest i can be. but its just that sometimes, insecurities and inferiority eats me up. i start to feel terribly stiffy all over, i really wish to evaporate on the spot. i feel ashamed of myself. no. im not phychotic. i appear to be abit problematic in school, which is what i really am. problematic. mr kwa seems to be the only teacher who can understand with what i am talking about.there was a period of time when i nearly went berserk, with all my problems, my lack of enthusiasium in studies, and the school. i am not a lousy student. im not trying to be arrogant, but i can study. im not overly kinestatic. in fact, i am an audio learner. i care about what my teacher says, but i just cannot get myself to self study. especially during the period of End Of Year exams. thats how my results were rubbish.blah. im not good with words, hence unable to decribe how i feel in to airy fairy paragraphs. but in short, i dont feel like living on this earth. i want to evaporate. no i wont kill myself cause i will not go to heaven in that way. i sincerely hope that next year i would be better. that i can FACE people better. that i can make friends in my class. with sheila and nilawan in 3F, i dont know what im going to do. life sucks.
a very self-centered post. just ignore. IGNORE lah.
*screams.
haiz. you cant read what im typing anyway.
love just ain't enough. 11:57 AM
A Sunday, December 05, 2004
okies.
changed my blogskin.
i noe. its typical. surfing and bikini girl again.
but i chose it cos of the cool billabong logo at the bottom right hand corner.
its the time of the year when i get new skool stuff.
saw a nice billabong sling bag.
and a nice fila bag pack.
and a nike one too.
cant make up my mind. erps. nvm. we shall see shouldnt we.
A Friday, December 03, 2004
HE is the singapore idol!
and he rawks!
not that i realli idolise him. but i juz think that hes better than sylvester.
isnt he?
i tink he is lah.
dont agree?
ok. lets argue.
haha. kidding. i jus prefer taufik over sly.
he gave a brilliant performance at the finals.
ciao. tell me if theres any disagreements!
TAUFIK RAWKS
love just ain't enough. 4:52 PM
